It's 1:54am and I am still sitting in my office at work. Very unlike-me. I am usually the first person to leave the office every day, and I usually never take work home, because I believe in the clear-cut separation from office-work and personal time at home (but of course that doesn't help anyone, because at home I work non-stop on community projects).
Well, this week is crunch-time and I feel a bit stressed out. It's the accumulation of all project deadlines. It's not only my professional work where I am behind, but more so the many community projects that drag me down. I left the office yesterday around this time as well, and I am afraid that I might have to work from home this weekend too, even though I will be flying out of town (yet again). Not good. Sigh… when do I ever start to learn to say ‘No’ to projects or wind down a bit as 98% of all my friends are telling me to? Have I not learned anything from Phu Heo’s death?
A chat with my best friend earlier this week..
Friend: so how are you?
Friend: (the answer is likely, very busy)
Me: hahahahaha
Me: Wanna call me at home?
Friend: well.....not for too long.....
Friend: but ok
Me: haha
Me: that's alright
Me: we'll catch up another time
Me: In short, I have been superbusy
Friend: yeah....
Me: to the point that I am a bit stressed out
Me: which doesn't happen often
Friend: if you weren't busy
Friend: i'd think somethign is wrong
Me: yeah, but this time, it's just a bit too much
Me: I regret taking on too many projects
Me: I feel like I am losing contorl
Friend: ahha.....same old minh
Friend: you're always like this though
Me: well, this time it's different, because I feel that I am losing control over my time management
Me: which usually is not the case
Me: but ah well
Me: crunch time I guess
Friend: well...you're getting older
Me: hahaha
Me: shit